so i am kinda of sick of writing everything down of what i did each day. i mean sometimes its good, but it doesnt really express much, then its more like a diary. and really, i dont even want to read that myself.


sometimes when i am bike riding or walking or running (which i have taken a fond liking to again, probably because i have been eating so much bread and chocolate again) i think about things to blog about, things i want to share with you. and then, of course i forget them. but today thats not the case.

these past few days, 14 to be exact, i started reading Purpose Driven Life. and i have just really been searching for what the purpose of my life is. i dont know if everyone just knows their purpose, or once you get past a certain age you are just too old to have a difference purpose than you set out. or at what age do you have you, AHA! moment and go, ive got it. thats it. i am waiting for that and trying to discover what my purpose is. one question that i really want to know, from you, is what do you think is the driving factor of my life?

i also have been thinking of what metaphor my life so far can be compared to. and i cant quite put my finger on it. i dont think my life could be compared to like a race, i am really slow with most things. i wouldnt say my life is like a building with a stone foundation or like a roller coaster, with lots of ups and downs and i am just "there for the ride" i am experiencing things and learning so much.
i would right now my metaphors of my life are two things
a book. or a classroom.
a book- because i always feel like i have a new begining and endings to many different things. one thing ends another starts. just like chapters, but there always seems to be a common theme or a common struggle or conflict within through the whole book. in germany i think its called "the red thread" the common thread throughout the whole book.
a classroom- with each new adventure and journey that i am taking there is so much to be learned. remember when you were a little kid, and every day you learned something new, something always fascinated you. whether it was you learned your times tables or how to write in cursive, i was always so excited to see what new lesson i could learn.
right now i feel like my lesson is communication. communication with people who are so close to me but right now so far away and communication with people who dont even speak the same language as me. i have to be careful with clues from their motions, tones and facial expressions and everything in between the lines, since i cant ever know every single word. I have to be creative in expressing myself and its been really challenging. through blogging, words, letters, actions and making time for people even when i am so far away its been hard. but yeah.


ok so i just watched the first german futball game and whoohoo germany won! its the european championship!

ANNd with this championships, there is so much german paraphernalia, which is crazy because last year there was NOTHING. and i had to search everywhere. and now its like even at teh grocery stores, flags, key chains, hats, shirts etc (if you want anything let me know)


OK this post is too long. but in the next few days i will update again with jessica and my weekend! it was so fun! BYEEE